Exhausted

So... I haven't posted in about three weeks. I've been working at another office, a couple of hours away from home. Some times I commute, some times I stay in a hotel up there.

At the end of the day, no matter how I slice it, it means long days. If I'm travelling, there's the drive time to and/or from the office, and if I'm staying there, I feel like I should make the most of my time up there, and put in longer days.

For the last week and a half or so, I've been staying up there. Since I can't go home to my family and enjoy time with them, why not put in the extra hours, get more done on the project I'm working on, and get some OT ($) while I'm at it?

Tonight I discovered one reason why I shouldn't do this... I'm exhausted.

As you're aware, I'm doing this "PINK Method" fitness/wellness program. It involves both nutrition and exercise. I've actually been really good with planning ahead for lunches and dinners. I cook food up ahead of time, pack it on ice to bring up here - all to make sure that I have healthy and nutritious food available to me, and so that I don't fall into the trap of simply grabbing whatever's available, or going out for lunch like everyone else up here seems to do. Nope - I pack my lunches, and when I run out of something, I go to the grocery store. My hotel room's got a kitchen so I can store, prepare, and cook my food the way I want it. More economical and more healthy, so I'm on track there.

Exercise is something else altogether, though. I'd love to say that I'm the kind of person that gets up at 5:30 to exercise, then showers and is ready to start my day around the time everyone else is just waking up... but that's simply not the case. While I will say that since beginning this program mornings are definitely easier, I still like my sleep too much. Nope - I work out at the end of my work day. Not always easy under the best of circumstances (after a normal 8 or 9 hour work day), but when I'm working 10 and 11 hour work days, it's incredibly difficult to stay motivated. I still do the workout that's scheduled, though - because travelling or not, I need to make changes in my life. And if they're going to be forever lifestyle changes, they need to be something I can implement regardless of where I am.

For the first time tonight, I didn't do the workout I set out to do. I was supposed to do two half-hour DVDs. I bailed after the end of the first one. Did I give it my all during the first one? Absolutely. Could I have gone further? I'll never know the answer to that, because I didn't even try. I think that's what's getting me down the most - not only did I let myself down, but I didn't even try to avoid it. I was just plain tired.

I need to give myself a kick in the ass, and then put this all behind me - start fresh tomorrow with a brand new outlook, prepared to get back on track with my plan. Right now, though, I'm just too exhausted. I guess I'll have to kick my ass and put this behind me in the morning ;)